[ 别 人 不 能 理 解 的 痛 ]

Scary thoughts filled my head.. I don't know what will happen in the future.. I don't have the power to make things right.. I'm just like any other ordinary person.. I want a happy family with happy parents and siblings.. Yet, all my wishes are breaking apart.. How do you feel when you see a family arguing so hard because of some foreigner perhaps stranger.. Bond between families is fading away in front of your own eyes.. Although I know there are so much people out there facing more serious problem than I do but for me this is worse enough and I doubt whether I can take more.. I try to soothe myself by sharing it with friends but I found that it is useless.. Nothing and no one can do anything for me.. My head is just as hard as rock, I can't think of anything and the chillness in my heart won't fade away whenever I think of this matter.. My heart aches when I see own people is hurting own people.. People might think it is a small problem but family is the most important thing to me.. Foundation of my life.. If a family can't be a place to rest my head, I doubt there are somewhere else for me..

You might never see this but I really hope you can think back, how we used to be a happy family and now that she comes into our life, everything changed. You have changed, you might not noticed that everyone are giving their best to accept her presence. Please just believe that your family won't hurt you whatsoever.. We will only try our best to protect you, we never want you to be alone.. Today, we respect your decision perhaps forcefully but we won't give up on you.. We will always be the place for you to lean your tired heart and mind. I just hope you can open your eyes and see that. I pray to God to give you every happiness because you are the one I love, this love is not the same as the love everyone pursues, it won't fade.. It will only grow stronger, family loves you my brother.