[ 一 个 字... 烦 ! ]

我现在真的是

超级 烦~!

为钱 烦

为学业 烦

为朋友 烦

终止就是 烦!!!

为什么就是不能体谅?

为什么就是不能礼让?

为什么就是不能忍耐?

为什么我的世界那么 烦 呵!!!

烦 死 啦 !

[ T e l e v i s i o n B r e a k D o w n ]

Arhhh!!! My beautiful tv sudah rosak.. Pity me can't watch Pops In Seoul + Two Days and One Night~! Arghh...

[ K e r a n g & L a l a ]

Shit! Stupid Fried Kerang and Lala made my stomach so upset.. Ishh..

[ W o r r y ]

Sigh, I'm really worried.. My brother went to see a fortune teller, he asked about our family members.. Regarding our health and all.. Some matter he talked about is really making me feeling uneasy and worried.. The fortune teller told my brother that there might be someone in my family will get mental problem.. My brother said the person who might get this problem is my younger sister Phoey Fang.. The fortune teller said my younger sister love to compete with others and this might cause her to face this kind of problem.. On the other hand, I am really worried that the one who might get mental problem will be me.. It is because I feel that I'm getting a little bit psycho and sometimes even will talk to myself.. There were times where I felt that I lived in my own world and I also imagined some stuff that definitely will not going to happen.. I am also a person who sometimes will try to compete with others.. Sometimes I also will be bothered by something that doesn't really matters! Just some small things, but it will bother me very much that I need to re-think again and again.. I am also being way too emotional.. I am really worried that I might be the one who is going to get mental problem..

[ C o n f u s i o n ]

Sometimes really don't understand why God bestow each and every human such different personality or attitude. Some people is just borned to be loved and some is just borned to be hate, wasn't it would be fair if every individual was given the same thing? Sigh, does God create people to love each other or to hate each other or to just use each other as a tool to get what we want. I once heard from a person that Friends are only tools to get something we want and after that Friend is of no use, we will forget about him or her bak kata pepatah kacang lupakan kulit. He or she told me its just what life is meant to be, the World is just a stage with characters using each other to gain benefits for themselves. After listening, I'm quite confused.. Am I supposed to be treat friends as Friends as in we can talk to them just about anything without the fear of them betraying us? Can we really tell them secrets? Or as what he or she said, we should just treat them as tools as they would also treat us the same way. We just pay back what he or she did to us. Sigh.. I don't know ah! How? Should I have faith? If I did, am I being stupid?