[ 不 爽 ]

我不喜欢别人拿某种事情来开玩笑

一点都不好笑!

不要让我白白的瞎担心! 我可没那么好脾气!

你也懂我的! 就别再有下一次! 我是认真的!

[ 我 beh song ! ]

If you are not coming back! I'm going to kill myself..

[ 别 人 不 能 理 解 的 痛 ]

Scary thoughts filled my head.. I don't know what will happen in the future.. I don't have the power to make things right.. I'm just like any other ordinary person.. I want a happy family with happy parents and siblings.. Yet, all my wishes are breaking apart.. How do you feel when you see a family arguing so hard because of some foreigner perhaps stranger.. Bond between families is fading away in front of your own eyes.. Although I know there are so much people out there facing more serious problem than I do but for me this is worse enough and I doubt whether I can take more.. I try to soothe myself by sharing it with friends but I found that it is useless.. Nothing and no one can do anything for me.. My head is just as hard as rock, I can't think of anything and the chillness in my heart won't fade away whenever I think of this matter.. My heart aches when I see own people is hurting own people.. People might think it is a small problem but family is the most important thing to me.. Foundation of my life.. If a family can't be a place to rest my head, I doubt there are somewhere else for me..

You might never see this but I really hope you can think back, how we used to be a happy family and now that she comes into our life, everything changed. You have changed, you might not noticed that everyone are giving their best to accept her presence. Please just believe that your family won't hurt you whatsoever.. We will only try our best to protect you, we never want you to be alone.. Today, we respect your decision perhaps forcefully but we won't give up on you.. We will always be the place for you to lean your tired heart and mind. I just hope you can open your eyes and see that. I pray to God to give you every happiness because you are the one I love, this love is not the same as the love everyone pursues, it won't fade.. It will only grow stronger, family loves you my brother.

[ 一 个 字... 烦 ! ]

我现在真的是

超级 烦~!

为钱 烦

为学业 烦

为朋友 烦

终止就是 烦!!!

为什么就是不能体谅?

为什么就是不能礼让?

为什么就是不能忍耐?

为什么我的世界那么 烦 呵!!!

烦 死 啦 !

[ T e l e v i s i o n B r e a k D o w n ]

Arhhh!!! My beautiful tv sudah rosak.. Pity me can't watch Pops In Seoul + Two Days and One Night~! Arghh...

[ K e r a n g & L a l a ]

Shit! Stupid Fried Kerang and Lala made my stomach so upset.. Ishh..

[ W o r r y ]

Sigh, I'm really worried.. My brother went to see a fortune teller, he asked about our family members.. Regarding our health and all.. Some matter he talked about is really making me feeling uneasy and worried.. The fortune teller told my brother that there might be someone in my family will get mental problem.. My brother said the person who might get this problem is my younger sister Phoey Fang.. The fortune teller said my younger sister love to compete with others and this might cause her to face this kind of problem.. On the other hand, I am really worried that the one who might get mental problem will be me.. It is because I feel that I'm getting a little bit psycho and sometimes even will talk to myself.. There were times where I felt that I lived in my own world and I also imagined some stuff that definitely will not going to happen.. I am also a person who sometimes will try to compete with others.. Sometimes I also will be bothered by something that doesn't really matters! Just some small things, but it will bother me very much that I need to re-think again and again.. I am also being way too emotional.. I am really worried that I might be the one who is going to get mental problem..