[ P r o v o k e d ! ]

Another shit thing had happened to me earlier! Someone just said something and it made me think of all negative things.. Its not her fault, but her words remind me of something I had been thinking previously.. I gave myself a reason to not feeling the way I used to feel.. and it did help.. I didn't think about that negative thing already.. but when this person repeat the things I used to think.. I felt provoked and started to think whether my previous thoughts are real or am I thinking too much.. in any way, I just felt provoked and i really hold grudge towards the related people but not the person who said the 'sentence'! Stupid! =.=

[ U n b e a r a b l e A t m o s p h e r e ]

What's more shit than feeling awkward all the time.. These two months are like hell to me.. I hate being in a new environment.. I'm totally reluctant to anything new! I know I got to face it eventually, but I don't want to have this feeling especially when I'm only in my twenties! My workplace is not cool at all.. The people are freaks, well maybe they thought I were one too.. I'm going for the happy go lucky type of girl but I totally can't do it in this kind of atmosphere.. Why? Because I'm invisible here! Why? Because people never noticed I existed? Why? Because they think I'm deaf! Arghh.. I hope everyhting ends sooner than soon! Wish granted? Santa! I hate the skinny frog-like creature around me!