[ 矛 盾 ]

我真的是一个很奇怪的人，我明明可以很开心的　但是　我总觉得空虚，悲哀，寂寞．．每当我有这些感觉的时候，我就会很愤怒　就好象全世界的人都得罪了我．．变得不可理喻，横行霸道．．我有时候觉得我真的或许有问题．．但是又好象没有事．．这是正常的吗？我好矛盾．．真的很矛盾．．为何会这样呢？

[ P r o v o k e d ! ]

Another shit thing had happened to me earlier! Someone just said something and it made me think of all negative things.. Its not her fault, but her words remind me of something I had been thinking previously.. I gave myself a reason to not feeling the way I used to feel.. and it did help.. I didn't think about that negative thing already.. but when this person repeat the things I used to think.. I felt provoked and started to think whether my previous thoughts are real or am I thinking too much.. in any way, I just felt provoked and i really hold grudge towards the related people but not the person who said the 'sentence'! Stupid! =.=

[ U n b e a r a b l e A t m o s p h e r e ]

What's more shit than feeling awkward all the time.. These two months are like hell to me.. I hate being in a new environment.. I'm totally reluctant to anything new! I know I got to face it eventually, but I don't want to have this feeling especially when I'm only in my twenties! My workplace is not cool at all.. The people are freaks, well maybe they thought I were one too.. I'm going for the happy go lucky type of girl but I totally can't do it in this kind of atmosphere.. Why? Because I'm invisible here! Why? Because people never noticed I existed? Why? Because they think I'm deaf! Arghh.. I hope everyhting ends sooner than soon! Wish granted? Santa! I hate the skinny frog-like creature around me!

The Memory_Park Yong Ha

Album The Memory - Park Yong Ha | ilovekpop | Nghe - tải - chia sẻ nhạc | Zing Mp3

In loving memory Park Yong Ha.. I dreamed of him yesterday night, although I don't even know his real name when I first watch his drama yet I feel sorrowful when I saw the news of him leaving this world. I don't know why I dreamed of him and I'm not really a hard die fan of him but I guessed I must say that I miss him after his absence. As I'm listening to his songs, my heart feels heavy, a feeling of hard to let go. I'm afraid of this feeling, if God allows.. I wish the people I love never leaves me and I will never leave them. I want us to stay together, I want us to be happy and live together although its difficult physically but at least please let our heart stays together let me feel the presence of all the one I loved and loves.

[ 我 爱 我 的 名 字 ]

虽然我的名字在别人眼中很奇怪但是我很喜欢! 因为它很特别~ 世界上应该没有人有我的名字吧.. 我的华语名字很普通.. 但是我的英文名却是独一无二的~ 虽然很多人都叫错我的名.. 可是没关系啦.. 特别就好.. xD I'm actually proud of my name.. =D No matter what others said..

[ T h a t F e e l i n g ]

Today, it seems like my 'old friend' had come to visit me after a rather long time.. Not really a 'friend' I welcomed but it just appear to be with me as it always do.. especially whenever someone around me seems to be more distant from me.. I never forget that feeling.. the feeling of emptiness.. Although I do feel scared sometimes, but I learnt to let it go I guessed.. I tend to enclose it in my heart in the past but I found out that letting it go may be a wiser choice to make.. I really wishes you happily ever after.. Sincerely from me.. I wish only the best for you.. =)

[ 永 远 的 第 一 天 ]

深夜

Deep in the night

机场冷清

Emptiness fills the airport
好安静

Silence in the air
我终于看见了你

Finally, I get to see you
穿着风衣提着行李听着md 走来走去

You, who were wearing long coat, carrying luggage, listening to MD.. While you were walking around
回忆

Memories
钻进心里

Deep inside my heart
全是你

Is all you
我走过去抱紧你

I came to you and hugged you dearly
你的声音你的芙容你的泪滴回到我怀里

Your voice, your smile, your tears are in my embracement again
你答应我今天飞来

You promised me to fly here
带着你迟来的真爱

Bringing along your late but true love
就飞过大海

Across the great ocean
带爱情回来

Bringing back the love
今天看见

Today I see
永远的第一天

The eternal first day
终于实现

At last realized
我和你的诺言

The promise between you and me
时间将一切拉远

Time had distant everything
爱在心里

Love in the heart
没有改变

Never changes
今天看见

Today, I saw
爱飞过地平线

Love fly across the horizon

让我说完

Allow me to finish
我对你的誓言

My promise to you
这是另一个起点

This is another beginning
我一定爱你到永远

I will love you till eternity

(ooh今天看见爱的第一天)

回忆

Memories
钻进心里

Deep inside my heart
全是你

All is you
我走过去抱紧你

I came to you and hugged you dearly
你的声音

Your voice
你的笑容

Your smile
你的泪滴

Your tears
回到我怀里

Return to my embracement
你答应我今天飞来

You promised to fly by today

我要在这一杪中说i love you…wu baby

From this second onward, I want say that I love you.. Baby
说永远不分开

Tell you that we will never be apart for eternity